»LETTING GO.
Thursday, November 15, 2012
If you sinking through a stone. Carry on.
If you fall in the well, Carry on.
If no one cares for you, Carry on.
If you fall in the ground, Carry on.
At any time or any minutes, carry on.
Let go of things that you're not worth it. And patiently wait for what you deserved.
It is not because you doesn't deserved it, its just because, YOU DESERVED MORE.
Sometime when i let go of someone who have been part of me, i'd be missing them. What they have done to make me smile. But i know, there's a time where people need to be left behind so they know that you're not something that people can throw back and forth. If they need me, put me there. Treat me like one. I don't bother saving a spot for someone who never make an effort to stay. I point this is not for what-they-imagined-boyfriend but in friendship i'd go through my 14 years of living.
Not everyone realised that FRIENDSHIP is something precious. That you cannot take for granted. And that is why i guess it is my responsible to make them realise that friendship is important.
People ask me "why did you seem like you don't care?"
Deep down on my heart, i care. I care for them. I care if ever this friendship will continue again. I care. But just, i'm waiting for them to start searching for me. Because my showing-how-much-care have ended. Now, it's their turn to decide IF i should or should not be there.
Beside, losing one friend doesn't mean it is the end of the world right? God gives a few badass in your life to make sure you'll be completely grateful if the 'right' one come next. But my observation, those who i let go. Who im giving full space to not appear in their life, finally come again and say 'HI'. I won't say I MISS YOU SO MUCH. But deep down, it buried in my soul. I miss them. I miss how i used to joke with them. I miss everything. I just don't show. I'm scared if no one appreciates my miss. Beside, i want them to learn, to appreciate people more. There's not gonna be anyone who gonna wait for you, chasing you, care for you. If you'd never care for them, never wait for them, never chase them.
I'd try my best to always and always and always SMILE and never crashed halfway. I always ask my heart to always remains strong so i doesn't end up greeting them. And that's definitely HARD. So HARD.
"There's always a time you gonna fall with torturing feeling of Missing, but there's always always gonna be people who will shine over you like a rainbow at the dark clouds. They will come unexpectedly. So never ever worry how it ended to be when letting go. It will be just right. Just right."
words spilled @ 7:32 PM /
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